Aaron (ironman0723) wrote,

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I'm so fucking pissed off right now.

First off, friday was a B day, and Emma didn't come to school. Of course, I always wait it out to see if she had a good reason, and then get mad at her if she didn't, so basically when she called me last night and told me that she stayed home just because, I was fucking pissed. Maybe I'm a little selfish to want to spend as much time as I can with her in school before grad, seeing as how we won't see eachother as much after, but on top of that, she can't keep missing B days like this, especially right before finals and right before the end of the school year. So last night I was really pissed about that, and I wasn't even gonna go out but I did decide that I needed to get out of the house. So I went out with Row and Baba and Alex, and that made me feel a little better for the time being.

Next piece of shit to happen. A few minutes ago I tried to watch the third episode on my new Quantum Leap DVD, and the piece of shit starts to be all glitchy. So I take it out and clean it off (it shouldn't be dirty in the fiurst place, hardly been used), and now that episode won't load at all. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS SHIT?? I really fucking don't want to have to take it back to Best Buy and deal with those asshats. WHY DOES SOMETHING ALWAYS HAVE TO FUCK UP??

About a minute or two after that, I get a phone call from Emma, and she says Guess what? I have some good news. You wanna know the fucked up thing about it? SHE WON'T FUCKING TELL ME THE GOOD NEWS. She said I have to wait until monday. That is BULLSHIT. First of all, I could go ahead and trust my first instinct and get my hopes up, hoping that it might have something to do with us and her parents, but I know emma better than anyone else, and I know how things work with her, and the way I see it, I am like 95% sure that if I get my hopes up about it, its gonna be about something else. But thats not even the worst part, the worst part is SHE WONT TELL ME. Now I have to sit around the whole damn weekend wondering what the fuck it is. Good news is good news I guess, but this shit just is pissing me off and I really wasn't in the mood for it in the first place.

Despite all that, I miss her like hell. Even despite when I'm mad at her, I find it extremely difficult to continue being mad at her and not miss her. Oh well, I just need to talk to her about a lot of things, we did settle a lot this week and it got emotional, but things are getting weird. Meh, here comes a storm, I hope its a good one. Somewhere, Mallow must be crying.
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